Writing Makes Me Feel Better




March 2017_11

How are You ?

I hope you are keeping well. I’m sorry I haven’t been in touch. I guess I have no excuse really other than life.

I’m feeling organised today, that does not happen often for me you know. I go with my energies you see. If I am too tired to clean my house I ignore it and laze about. I have had to train myself to be like this. I have come to learn I must give myself a break safe in the knowledge that my energy will return and my house will be sparkling again………..for about a day and a half.

My Mum flew back to Ireland this week. She had been staying with us for two whole months ! How lucky am I ? I literally have not seen the washing line in two months. What woman can say that ? But it wasn’t just the washing you know…………..

We must juggle so much as mothers, picking children up, dropping them off, grocery shopping, doctors visits, walking the dog, standing at the school gates, meeting mothers at the playground.

What I enjoyed most was having company to do all those things. You can spend so much time in your own head in those in between moments and I guess you do not even realise how lonely it can be. So to have someone ….not just someone your own Mother. For those boring inbetween bits of daily life by your side is like having a shadow that you didn’t know how badly you needed until its gone on a plane across the world.

I have increased my working days from three days a week to four. The extra money is most welcome as the cost of family life continues to increase. That one day off in the week is all the more sweet now.

I am savouring the moments of free time with my newly turned four year old. He makes me laugh so much. He asks me to be ‘infinity quick’ when I leave and I must repeat back to him ‘I will be infinity quick’ even if I know I will be gone from his beautiful face for 8 hours. When I return he rushes out the door to greet me like a faithful puppy dog with his arms outstretched and chokes me with his love.  I hope I can always be his super hero.

I realise I am much more myself and so much more relaxed and fulfilled when I am at home with my boys. However I do wonder if I would feel like that if I was at home full time. I suspect I would not. How lucky am I to have flexible work choices and a family friendly work life balance.

The big boy is in Year 1 now and thriving. He completes his homework with enthusiasm and delight. It may not last but it is a fantastic start. Even though he is six now I still delight in his innocence and wonder of the world. He still likes dinosaurs and  insists that he wants to be a palaeontologist. He makes me laugh when he becomes all coy and shy when I ask him about an older girl from school whom he says is his worstest enemy. He has made the tooth fairy go broke with all the teeth he is loosing. The fairies helping him to navigate this journey into grown up life.

So please remember this time with your little babies is not forever. I know you are always being told this, but it really does go so fast. I still can’t believe its been four years since I was a mother of a small baby. Time flies.. and memories, they do fade like the dirty toddler handprints left on your kitchen walls. Hang in there if you are finding things hard, the juggle I mean. Nowadays I can leave the boys to amuse themselves while I get some chores done. I mostly get a full nights sleep and often (not always) go to the toilet uninterrupted.

The youngest is in kindy now. I met with his teacher this week  she said that all the kids want to play with him. He tells me he has no friends and “nobody will play with me”. I can tell he is happy though I only have to give him two “infinity quick” goodbyes rather than the standard 5.

I think I’m in the midst of perhaps my 3rd mid life crisis though. Wondering what I want to be when I grow up. I beat myself up a lot…………. We all do it don’t we ? Thinking we are not good enough that we have not achieved enough, comparing ourselves to others.

But I keep remembering a meme I saw on Facebook

“Where you are now is where you wanted to be 7 years ago.”

It is true you know, but we come across so many glass ceilings that need to be smashed down we begin to loose our way and forget what we came here for.

So I keep telling myself to just keep my head down and keep writing. Write my way out of this muddy puddle.

Because writing works and taking pictures that always makes me feel better, without fail.

But it is just actually making the effort to do it that is the hard bit.

I’m getting up at 5:20am in the morning to run around an “oval” as the aussies say, a “pitch” in my language or even a “field”. I will run with my fitness group until my chest feels like it might spontaneously combust and I might vomit or poo or maybe even die……But then I will find my breath and I will beat it. Beat my alter ego “Dramatic Druimé” at her game and then I will feel like I can do anything.

At least until 3pm ……………

But its all a bloody mind game this life and I just need to get on with it

How about you ???

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  1. Beautiful Driume and very brave to write down your feelings for everyone to see. That to me would be almost impossible. I too am very critical of myself but I feel it to be helpful to smile and say hello to total strangers I meet on the street and they always smile back. A lovely feeling and it lifts my mood immediately. Be well dearest Driume and look after yourself and your beautiful family. Big hug xxx 😍❤🌹🌹🌹


    1. Oh Nini what a lovely surprise to wake up and see you had visited my virtual home for a cup of tea. I absolutely love your description of smiling at strangers . I hope that you too are well. Lost of love xxx


  2. I house sat over the weekend Druime, and I was sitting looking out the window thinking about how fleeting life is and how I really whizzed through those years when my sons were young… I wasn’t mindful, though, I wasn’t aware of this then either! It was because I was with two dogs, Shitzu’s and one 18 year old puss, and having so much fun – in the moment – that propelled this thought forward. While we can’t undo the past, we can treasure the here and now, and do the best we can with what we know and have learned. As always, I love reading your blogposts… love your photographs and endearing honest words. Big hugs xoxo


    1. Leanda I love that those animals spurred your thoughts about life. I love the silent contentedness of hanging out with animals. Im sure you had many moments of mindfulness with you boys when they were younger………but you just cant remember 🙂 . You are so right though wise words “we can only do the best we can with what we know and have learned” Thank so much for visiting my new space and for your kind words xxx


  3. Enjoy writing champion , my moto at the moment is to try enjoy the very second of every single minute , if I’m driving alone , stuck in traffic, in work , waiting for smalls out of school ….the stuff you said is the in between is actually what were meant to be enjoying … The journey …………cause you know time goes so fast and whatever were waiting for will happen …believe in the very second of the very moment , looking forward to seeing you but I know its coming soon so I’ll enjoy till its time xxxxx


    1. Renee Thank you so much for visiting my new Space. You are very thoughtful. Love having you here xx Both your comments worked so Thank you for taking the time xxx


  4. I just commented, but I don’t think it worked. Argh!! Anyway, just wanted to say that I love your new space here. You’ve been missed.

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